i feel like i have so many expectations to live up to at school, but at the same time im best friends with this genius girl. she’s athletic and just generally amazing at everything she does. she admits that she doesn’t even put a lot of effort into the things she does. i know it’s terrible, but i constantly compare myself to her. i’ve always been known for doing well in my english class, but now she’s passing the class with no sweat at all and the teacher loves her.
i had a group project today and the teacher didnt like my presentation. i let my group down. i feel so miserable. sometimes i want to die? but i think itd be too much work to off myself. so i dont.
this got very depressing very quickly.
From experience, admittedly not so severe, but understanding, I think you need to take a step back. This girl you compare yourself to is “one” person out of the more then “7 billion” people living in our world. Stop living your life as if you’re one step behind everyone and start to understand that everyone one is born different; mentally and physically. It doesn’t make you worse or better. It’s how you overcome these hurdles along the way that will make you stronger then this girl and everyone else out there putting you down. I’m not some philosophical preacher; all I want you to do is push through the rough times and I can personally guarantee you that life gets better afterwards.